My condolences, I lost my dad 9 months ago and he was my best friend. I understand that feeling of losing someone closer to you than the ground beneath your feet. It has been hard but, the best we can do is take it a day at a time. Take your time, Myself and many others who have been following you for years will still be here anticipating your return and wishing you nothing but love. Stay strong, know you're not alone.